Still Crying

When my heart was broken the agony was too much to bear
I was speechless, so everyone else tried to explain my cares
How can they know the feelings I tried to hide?
His defense to what they thought is what made everyone take sides.

I wasn’t dreaming, but I figured he always knew
That I tried to be something I wasn’t and bit off more than I can chew.
I couldn’t juggle more than one but I felt guilty over the heart I supposedly broke
How could I know he was lying just to make a joke?

Destroying my heart because he was too jealous to accept the fact
That I wanted someone else who possessed everything that he lacked.
Mystery is poetic and the lyrics he made kept me flowing
I just knew with him by my side he could give me a reason to keep going.

Beauty is fleeting and charm is forever deceptive
But I was walking with the blind and my sight has been finally corrected.
He wanted me to understand hurt, so I would know how it feels
What he didn’t know is I was already in the car of pain with someone else behind the wheel

I opened bottles with pills determined to devour every last one
I just couldn’t understand where the accusations were coming from
Each day I prayed for the moment that it would stop
I held everything up for so long until I finally let it all drop.

They laughed and they mocked and my love joined along in song
The guilty applauded as though innocent and couldn’t see the wrong
I was accused of lying and manipulating the facts
But what they didn’t explain is how I was trying to defend him from their attacks

Over and over again they repeated his words so they stuck like knives
But I refused to believe a truth surrounded by lies.
To his defense I came but only One came to mine
He comforted me at night, while I was only my bed still crying,